hi daryl (:
i dont mind writing your name here, or even writing out a full message to you. because i know you're the only one in probably 3 years to visit my diaryland, really. and i havent told anyone about my diaryland in 3 years too, so no one you know, or we both know, would be able to find it because i've also blocked google from being able to locate this site. so, this is for your eyes only i suppose.
it feels weird writing on here again, after so long of not visiting the exact page i am on now as i add this entry. i almost forgot about this site actually, till i was looking through your own livejournal entries and i remembered, hey, i have one too. revisiting this site made me remember so many things i'd forgotten and many experiences that, if i had not taken the time to document here, would have also forgotten. you said i cried a lot back in jc, and honestly i'd forgotten all about that because my memories of my short 1.5 years there were mostly good. well i found that entry and when i read it, i felt like i was there again and i remembered, i remembered why i was upset and everything even though i hadn't even written about the reason in my entry. i guess what i'm trying to say is that, i wrote because i didnt want to forget my past, because, the past would mean nothing to me now in the present if i can't remember any of it.
and so i share it with you because, this is me and who i am now is because of all my past experiences that have shaped me. i want you to know also, why i am the person i am, and maybe, through reading these you will find out more about who i am.
hope this isnt too cushy. guess what i'm really trying to say here is, you're the first person in a while i've let know about this diaryland, because there are a few entries here that are a bit more...i guess personal. not a lot of people back then even knew about this
site.
here, i open it to you. we've only recently come into one another's lives, i think i can safely say. so grab some of those chips and chili you seem currently addicted to and have a read through some stuff you missed out on before we met (:
will give you a week from today (19/11/2011) to read this and then i will delete this post.